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December 14th, 2008


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scholarsofwar
09:35 pm
Cowboys on the road tonight
Crying in their sleep
If I was a hungry man with a gun in my hand
And some promises to keep
Who wanted to change the world…
What’s as easy as murder?
It’s all headlights and vapor trails
And Circle K killers

And I could look at anyone but you now
I could fall into the eyes of anyone but you now

So come on, come on, come on, come on,
Come on through now
Come on, come on, come on, come on,
Come on through now

This is a list of what I should have been but I’m not
This is a list of the things that I should have seen
But I’m not seeing
The look in your eyes as his fingertips lit on your neck
And it made you shiver
I’m just turning away from where I should have been
Because I am not anything

The president’s in bed tonight but he can’t get to sleep
Cause all the cowboys on the radio are killers
And I believe she loves you
Cause you never make her feel like anything
She said I wouldn’t feel a thing
But I can feel, oh I can feel

And I know I could look at anyone but you now
I could fall into the arms of anyone but you now
So come on, come on, come on, come on,
Come on through now
Come on, come on, come on, come on,
Come on through now

This is a list of what I should have been but I’m not
This is a list of the things that I should have seen
But I’m not seeing
The look in your eyes as his finger’s unzipping your dress
And it makes you shiver
I’m just turning away from what I shouldn’t see
Because I am not anything

Everyone’s in bed tonight but nobody can sleep
Cause all the satellites are watching through our windows
She says she doesn’t love me like she’s acting
But it’s as if she isn’t talking
Cause Mr. Lincoln’s head is bleeding
On the front row while she’s speaking
I said come on all you cowboys
All you blue-eyed baby boys
Come on all you dashing gentlemen of summer
I’ll wait for you where Saturday’s a memory
And Sunday comes to gather me
Into the arms of god who’ll welcome me
Because I believe…Oh I believe…

And I know I could look at anyone but you now
I could fall into the eyes of anyone but you now

So come on, come on, come on, come on,
Come on through now
Come on, come on, come on, come on,
Come on through now

This is a list of what I should have been but I’m not
This is a list of the things that I should have seen
But I’m not seeing you look at me
So please won’t you look at me?
Cause I’m not seeing you look at me
Oh I will make you look at me
Or I am not anything

I was driving home from his house that night.  Him being that guy I was dating who wasn't you.  He was sweet, and he was kind, and attentive, and he liked me more than you ever did.

But that night I was driving home and thinking of you.  Thinking of the taste of Kahlua and milk on your lips, the way your eyes light up when you're excited, spinning like little blue-green planets.  Thinking of your fingers trailing along hills and hollows of my hips and back.  And most of all, thinking about the six months that had passed since I last spoke to you.

I should have been angry.  I should have been furious with you, ignoring my phone calls and pretending not to see me in the bookstore.  But I knew I never could be, because of that cracking feeling in my heart.  The fact that you could cause me physical pain was astonishing.  It was like someone had poked greedy fingers into my chest and wrapped them around my lungs.

When I started to cry, it was like I would never stop.  I could barely see, salty streams coursing furiously down red cheeks.  Cars were honking, lights flashing red and yellow, but I couldn't stop driving.  I couldn't stop crying.  And I couldn't stop the words from pounding down over me:

But I’m not seeing you look at me, So please won’t you look at me? Or I am not anything ...



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From:cooling1018
Date:December 17th, 2008 06:02 am (UTC)
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This was beautiful. Thanks for posting.

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